This is the worst time of my life, I've no one to talk to. But who can i blame? No one but myself!

I can turn to no one, everything is so wrong and this could be the worst thing that is happening in my life. I did something terrible, I'm filled with guilt and regret. But at this point of time, I can't get any support from anyone. Even he himself doesn't give me his care. concern and understanding. Who else can I turn to?

I really feel like ending my life, but till now I haven't got the courage. But I really feel like ending this pain. This pain that I'm going through alone... And I really feel sorry towards her. I'm sorry.

I don't need anything that cost a bomb, all I need is a sincerity heart. I don't need lies, I don't need hurts. I just want a simple and normal life. I just need your care, concern, understanding, and your support, to be there for me. But what did you give me?

If I can have a choice again, I will not done what I have done. I'm very sorry for what i have done, I hate myself for hurting you. 2/14/2009 02:54:00 AM

Super super miss my GFS!!! All of them!! Looking at the photos we took when we had the fun times together make me miss them so so so much and really want to meet up with them soon!

Work + School Assignmentsssss + Exam + ClasseSSSS + BF = NO TIME

How I wish I got 48 hours, so I can get to spend some time with my precious GFS….

For school, exam had just finish last Saturday night and I have started my new module last night.

NO BREAK!!

And another exam in a month time…

For work, Janice will be leaving me at the end of this month, I’m gonna be alone for a month.

I’ll definitely be tendering my resignation soon.

And hopefully i can start work in November, and please be in the mid November, that’s the best!

I need some break, need some more time to spend with my loved ones.

9/24/2008 12:42:00 PM

I'm feeling very vexed right now. I missed the times when we are still schooling. Though we are childish when I looked back now, I still enjoyed myself to the full. I had never let go of you because you are one of the dearest person in my life and I had endured many sour and bitter issues, you know that. But just thinking of how are we now makes me so upset! Few years back, another person came into your life and everything changed. Though I got unhappy whenever I want to meet you and then you told me that you are meeting that person, but compared to now, I think I that’s not the worst. I think that it is even worse now.

After you told me what that person felt then, makes me even more uneasy. And on the other hand, you disappoint me even more. The things that you had proven to me had greatly hurt me and showed me something. Something that I cannot accept! I just find it hard to accept!

No matter what, I have never ever forgotten you. I just kept you inside my heart but what about you? Have you ever thought of me? I’ve got so many things to say! I’m seriously unhappy about all this.

Yes! At my side, I have abandoned you and things tend to change. Even if you use this to argue with me, I’ve got nothing to say. But like I said, I have never forgotten about you before. You know the situation then but after the misunderstanding had been cleared, things got better. I’m also not in a difficult position as before.

But no matter what, I give you the best whenever I need to. I try to help you whenever I need to and with all my means. But have you? It seems like there are many things which I thought was not important as important as me but was actually more important than me. You have proved it to me already, you can’t deny anything!

I used to be there for you whenever you need me but gradually I wasn’t there because someone has replaced me. Before you guys got close, do you dare to say that I wasn’t there for you everytime you need me?

Whenever you are in the hardest time, I will be there to help you. But have you ever appreciate me? 8/13/2008 12:53:00 PM

Hey baby, I just want to tell you that I’m so glad that we are still as loving as before. I’m very happy that I am beginning to see some changes in you for the past 2 days; I hope that you are able to maintain this attitude. I’ll love you even more! I will be beside you cheering for you ya!

Loves! 7/23/2008 01:59:00 PM

I’m very sad that you have to leave; you are one of my closest colleague and just like a young yet caring papa to me. The first time when I saw you, I didn’t have much of a good impression of you but at that moment when you helped me carry those heavy newspapers, I knew that you are a nice person. After which my impression of got better and till now, we can get along just fine. The thought of you leaving just make me tear. Without you in the office, I think it’ll be dead quiet and bored! You are just like the fresh air that makes everyone so refreshing. No matter what I hope that you can find a better place to have a better future. I hereby wish you well in your future endeavors. Misses to you my friend. 7/23/2008 10:52:00 AM

I have decided to give it another try, I hope that things will turn out better…….

PS: I love you!

7/21/2008 04:02:00 PM

I do not know why but I’m feeling kind of upset. I could not find a suitable person to talk to, not even my closest friend because I don’t want her to feel that I only turn to her when I’m upset. I’ve been feeling miserable since last night, been thinking a lot and also in a dilemma. I have always come to a decision and I was quite firm for the start, but eventually, I couldn’t bring myself to do it.

Since yesterday, I’ve been thinking about it. I am just afraid that I won’t be firm with my stand again and couldn’t bring myself to end it. I wasn’t like this before, I used to be very firmed with my stand and once I made a decision, I rarely change my mind. But now, even after I set my mind to do this, I just can’t bear to do it. You always change my firm decision but now, are you able to do that? But even if you are able to do that, will i feel miserable again?

If only you will never ever make me feel upset again, then I would not have come to make this decision everytime. 7/21/2008 10:54:00 AM

Suddenly, I realized that quite a number of my friends are with babies already. They are young and have the youth but having a baby to tie them down so young. Is it worth it?

Sometimes I would think of having a baby myself, but the thing about it is, though it is cute and adorable, the things you have to scarify for it is too much. Am I able to? Can I afford to bring it up without a stable income and education?

To have that courage to give birth to it is indeed not easy at all!

But what’s meant to be with meant to, what’s not meant to be will not meant to be…… If it's meant to be, I will have baby anytime from now till old. But if it's not meant to be, I will not have any baby till I die.

I believe in fate! I’m in the hands of FATE! 6/27/2008 11:51:00 AM

You Are A Professional Girlfriend!

You are the perfect girlfriend - big surprise! Heaven knows you've had enough practice. That's why you're a total pro. If there was an Emily Post of girlfriends, it would be you. You know how to act in every situation ... to make both you and your guy happy.

You Are Super Spicy

You're a little bit crazy, a little bit naughty, and a whole lot of sexy.

You go beyond hot - you set people's senses on fire!

You Are Very Sexy

Damn! You are one hot number. You have a lot of sex appeal. You know you're sexy, and you're not afraid to put it all out there. And while you're very appealing, you're careful not to be trashy or over the top. Sexy is all about attitude. And you totally have the attitude that people love. How You Are Sexy You accept your body as it is, and that's sexy. If you feel attractive, you are more attractive - no matter what your shape is. You feel gorgeous, and you always try to look your best. You make the best of what you've got. Totally sexy! You are secure in social situations, and you definitely have a confident vibe. And that's very sexy. You keep your body fit and healthy, and that's hot. Plus, sweating is also sexy!

6/23/2008 08:08:00 PM

Big fish's mouth caught small fish's mouth

We are still holding tight!!!

Baby treat me eat Bird Nest..... YUM YUM!!!

Take until SO UGLY!!!

HE DID ON PURPOSE!!!Look like a small boy....

OUR CANDLE LIGHT DINNER......

EEEE!!! Dear, you look like you are going to rape the food=D

He did this on purpose too!!!

OPPSS!!! Obsence!!!
This kiss....
I know you love this picture....
Monkey Baby......
OH!!! I remember already!!! He's the naughty little monkey whom had ran out of the Zoo!!!
I like this picture, why must you close your eyes baby???

6/19/2008 07:34:00 PM